Waiting in Expectation

My Husband and I decided to start our own family when we moved a few states away from ours, a year and a half ago. A few months into the process of our dreams not coming true, I began to worry. One day, I received a sweet email from my Mammy (my Grandmother),  explaining how she realized that the “t” in “expecting” looked like a cross. And how all of our expectations are in God. I’ve always prayed for God’s will to be done in my life. I have a desire in my heart to become a mother that I know God put there.

After the designated amount of time of trying ourselves with no luck, we decided to visit a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). It was there that we learned of our infertility diagnosis. We learned that in short of a miracle from God  (which we are still praying for), we were going to need medical intervention to achieve our pregnancy goals. It was a big blow to take, but the fact that we are hours away from family and friends intensified it.

After we took a few weeks to process things, we started off 2015 with our first medicated IUI (not sure? Click here). To make a long story short, we have had a total of three failed medicated IUIs. Each time we found out that the procedure didn’t work  was followed by a few days of mourning. But because of our faith and hope in God, very supportive family and friends, and a wonderful church family, we continue to fight the battle of Infertility.

We have more plans of fertility procedures this summer. In late June we started the beginning stages of In Vitro Fertilization (not sure? Click here.)  Due to the emotional roller coaster that we are on, we may choose to keep those dates quiet except for those closest to us. One way or another we will become parents. But for now, we wait in expectation. We know this desire was given to us by God, so we know that He will provide. Until that day, we will continue to pray, continue to hope, and continue to dream.

In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. 

Psalm 5:3 

7 thoughts on “Waiting in Expectation

  1. Kim Obenchain says:

    Love you lady!!! We struggled with “unexplained infertility” for about five years… We had given up hope of having “bio-kids” and had been in the process of wanting/trying to adopt two little boys. We found out the mother changed her mind then the next day we found out we were expecting our oldest, Sadie Grace. Its a hard road to travel… The road of infertility…bc after you’re married everyone’s always asks when you are planning to have a baby then when they find out you are having issues they give you advice from “just relax”, “stand on your head”, “do it this way”, etc yata yata yata even complete strangers seem to have very intimate input in this very private part of your lives. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts and more importantly my prayers… Love ya lady!!!


  2. Kim Mitchell says:

    Lauren. You are on the right track in that your hope and trust is in God. Your faith is being strengthened through this trial. What an amazing testimony for others. I will be praying for you


  3. Jacqueline S Merkle says:

    Lauren–Amy/Travis were told they would never have children. They, too, put their faith in God and eight years–well you know the “rest of the story!” Keep your trust in the ONE you have faith in and it will happen one way or the other. Praying for the two of you!


  4. Aunt Nene says:

    LaLa, I’ve been praying from the beginning, and will continue to pray. I’ve no doubt that God will answer our prayers.


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