Waiting in Expectation

My Husband and I decided to start our own family when we moved a few states away from ours, a year and a half ago. A few months into the process of our dreams not coming true, I began to worry. One day, I received a sweet email from my Mammy (my Grandmother),  explaining how she realized that the “t” in “expecting” looked like a cross. And how all of our expectations are in God. I’ve always prayed for God’s will to be done in my life. I have a desire in my heart to become a mother that I know God put there.

After the designated amount of time of trying ourselves with no luck, we decided to visit a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). It was there that we learned of our infertility diagnosis. We learned that in short of a miracle from God  (which we are still praying for), we were going to need medical intervention to achieve our pregnancy goals. It was a big blow to take, but the fact that we are hours away from family and friends intensified it.

After we took a few weeks to process things, we started off 2015 with our first medicated IUI (not sure? Click here). To make a long story short, we have had a total of three failed medicated IUIs. Each time we found out that the procedure didn’t work  was followed by a few days of mourning. But because of our faith and hope in God, very supportive family and friends, and a wonderful church family, we continue to fight the battle of Infertility.

We have more plans of fertility procedures this summer. In late June we started the beginning stages of In Vitro Fertilization (not sure? Click here.)  Due to the emotional roller coaster that we are on, we may choose to keep those dates quiet except for those closest to us. One way or another we will become parents. But for now, we wait in expectation. We know this desire was given to us by God, so we know that He will provide. Until that day, we will continue to pray, continue to hope, and continue to dream.

In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. 

Psalm 5:3